{bEautifuL}

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Happy moments, praise God.

Difficult moments, seek God.

Quiet moments, worship God.

Painful moments, trust God.

Every moment, thank God.

This is a Thomas Kinkade painting. It's rumored to carry a miracle! They say if you pass this on, you will receive a miracle. I am passing this on because I love thomas kinkade and i believe in miracles!!! who couldn't use a miracle?! thanks lhindah... i truly needed this. <3

i'm still aLive...

it's been awhile since i have blogged. lots going on here. i was looking at my counter and was gonna do a big RAK when it hit 1957. HOLY COW!! when i last looked it was in the 1800 now it is past my number. i guess i had some lurkers wondering where i have been. i know i have been gone but, i didn't think anyone really looked at my blog that much. i think maybe i will have to just choose another number or just do a drawing with comments. not sure but when i figure it out i will be sure to let you know. anyways...i just wanted to write a few lines and let everyone know that trevor is doing remarkable! i am truly touched by all the kindness we have been shown by our family and friends. we are truly blessed. thank you from the bottom of my heart!! i also wanted to let you all know that i am still alive. i have been very busy these last 4 days. i hope to try and catch up tomorrow. for now i must turn in for i am berry seepy (yes i said seepy not sleepy and berry not very). thanks again for thinking of me and my family through all of this. i am honored to be blessed with family and friends who love me. night *hugs* connie

inspiRed...

i just had to blog again. i have been a week behind in reading angela's journal on her heart transplant. so i took some time to read and catch up www.caringbridge.org/visit/angelamoore reading her journal entries have been very good for me this evening. we worry about our lives and yet what we are going through right now seem so small compared to a heart transplant. reminds me of the carrie underwood song, so small. you have to see the video it will bring ya to tears. at least it does for me. i am again tearing up at the thought of all of my blessings in this life. for all of my trials i have, me fears, my pain and heartache, my joy, my laughter, my kids, my family, my friends and my loves! i am a blessed child of God! night

hmmm...

i feel like these last few days didn't really happen. were they just a blur? was i dreaming? was it deja vu? then i look at my son and the pictures and realize...it was reaL. i think when something like this happens it is meant for a reason. not saying i am glad it happened. just that it is an eye opener. for me it was. a have had a flood of emotions lately. some good, some bad. ones that i am grateful for and ones that make me do a lot of questioning. one thing i realized through all of this is...we do have guardian angels. how ever you want to think of them is up to you. it might have been a family member who has passed on, a sick relative on their way home to heaven, a family or fRiend thinking of you at that very moment or God himself. i was again reminded that these angels are always with us. we also have the Holy Ghost with us at all times as well. it all depends on what we are doing, what choices we are making for them to seem more present in our daily lives. i am reminded that i am not telling my kids i love them daily. i am reminded that i am not saying my prayers faithfully. i am reminded that my family NEEDS to come first. that i need to stop being selfish and put my needs aside for a bit. i am still trying to wrap my finger around all of this. still trying to not ask the question "why". as i sit here typing with tears filling my eyes, i am truly bleSsed and gRateful. for all the prayers. for all of my family members and extended family members. for all of my friends. for all of the people who touch my life on a daily bases. for my life! at times i get so overloaded, so overwhelmed that i can't function. that i feel like i am gonna go over the deep end. then this still small voice reminds me that i have a purpose. i may not know what it is all the time but, i know i am needed. i know that somewhere out there in this crazy world someone needs me. thanks for listening to me babble. i think i just needed a good cry. k, i'm over it and moving on. have a great night. *hugs*

update...

when i started downloading the pictures i took yesterday and today i saw this one. galen caught a picture of trevor and i that i thought was priceless. i knew i was tired but, didn't realize how tired. i fell asleep rubbing trevor's head. i have a few of these pictures with my children that mean the world to me. i am usually the one behind the camera. i am blessed to have my children. the last couple of days and this experience has reminded me of it. what a honor it is. what a trial it can be. what an experience. what a blessing!



we went to the dentist today and he too was amaZed at the sight of trevor. he is a true walking miracle! he broke his front tooth and cracked the other. dr. birtcher took x-rays and found that there was no nerve damage. he then built trevor's tooth. he said we will need to still watch it for nerve damage. if there is, then the tooth will die and we will have to deal with that. trevor will be staying home again tomorrow and we will see how he is for thursday. again we all want to thank you for all of your prayers. they have been felt and heard. we are grateful for trevor and the importance he is in this life, in our family and to others. he is here to serve a purpose and it wasn't his time. THANK YOU GOD! love to all. *hugs* connie

a blessed ER visit...

many of you know (and some don't) that we spent yesterday afternoon and into the late evening in the er with our 2nd oldest. trevor was riding his bike home from school and was hit by a car going 25 mph just around the corner from our home. let me tell you that when i received the call from my husband at work i about lost it. he received a call from the neighbor who witnessed it and they called him. he then called me and i flew out of work like you wouldn't believe. i was filling in for a co-worker who just had a biopsied done. so as we both were driving trevor's route to come home we were a mess. galen got there before i did. we both were warned by the police officer and ambulance to slow down. we both said "that's our son". when i got there the police and ambulance were there with a lot of on-lookers. trevor was a mess. i was a mess. i was trying to keep myself together for him. i gently hugged him and told him i loved him. this is the most scariest feeling i have ever felt. the thought of possibly loosing a child. i was then listening to everyone trying to find out the story of what happened. lets just say everything is still kinda a blur. i think i am still trying to recover. we refused the ambulance but they phoned the er and they were waiting for us. before we could leave trevor begged me to go tell the driver (she attends his high school) he was ok. my son...thinking of others before himself. he is sooo known for this. so off to the er we headed but, not before trevor was given a blessing. we also had to get all of the other kids squared away. when we got to the er they were waiting for us and took this very seriously. they treated him as a trauma patient and got him on a board, neck collar and strapped him in. trevor was so good. i guess he was crying at the scene but, i wasn't there yet. then he didn't cry again until they cut his clothes off. he did choke up quit a bit when he thought about this weekend. his high school marching band made state. trevor plays the trumpet. it has been over 17+ years and they have all worked so hard to get to state. he said "i'm going". we said "doesn't look good trev". after he thought about it he said "maybe just to go and watch and support". all i could say is "we'll see". the er doc comes in and does all the major checking of him and asked if he was wearing a helmet. of course he wasn't. he said "you will from now on, right"? lets just say trevor had his guardian angels with him. i think his namesake and great-grandparents were with him. he was truly watched over and blessed! after many long hours in the er trevor was released from the hospital with lots of bumps and bruises, a broken tooth a messed up face and 6-10 stitches in his chin. he did cry when they did this. (for those of you who get queasy you may not want to read this next part) first they numbed him and came in 3 times to scrub out the pavement from his face. then the doc came in to stitch him up and was using a scalpel to still get gravel out. he was digging in his chin back and forth (ya, i was not looking). he then had to cut away some more skin and continued to dig into his chin to try and place the insides back together. he was able to now stitch him up the best he could. he stated it will be his hollywood scar. we heard many stories of this same incident while at the hospital from docs, nurses and firefighters that did not have good endings. trevor on the other hand... blessed and lucky. i have always called him my miracle baby since birth...he still is! we are going to the dentist today. his face and mouth is pretty messed up. this looks like where he took the brunt of the accident. i will post later. he is pretty doped up and resting so i think i am gonna try and get some stuff done. thanks for all your prayers and calls. we know that they were heard. we are truly grateful! we know that this could have been very tragic. this er visit...we were truly blessed.

ps. so much more happened but, you get the important part of it...he is alive and safe! no head trauma, broken bones or internal damage as of now. to many details to write about, not enough time.

having some much needed fuN...

it has been a pretty fuN day today. i am spending the day, evening and night with rhonda and joann. i am so excited to just have some much needed girl time. we are working on christmas crafts, scrapbooking, digital scrapbooking, watching movies and just having some great girl time. it is so what i needed!!! well, i am gonna get back to my fuN. i will try and write more tomorrow. night

{must get sleep}

not feeling so good. i have had a headache all day and running a slight fever. so i have been hanging on the down low today. stayed in my pj's, laid on the couch with my blankey. just wish my phone was broken. forgot to turn them off and all they did was ring today. didn't have enough energy to talk with anyone. so i am sorry if i didn't return your call or pick up the phone when you rang. my head was and still is killing! i am hoping to go to bed real soon and get a much needed good night sleep. sorry this is so blah but, that is how i am feeling right now. hope to be better tomorrow. night

got mY quick fix for comfort todaY...

can anyone tell me why food is so comforting? i know that food is a bad source of comfort but, it is comforting. i guess you need to look at it and take it in moderation. todaY was not that daY for moderation. i sat down after work and ate 2 shredded beef tacos, an entire bag of homemade chips with homemade salsa and my cherry pepsi. all of this from our local mexican food place. can i just say YuMmY!!! so i probably gained my 6 pounds that i lost last week back but, it feLt GOOD!!! it was much needed too. i know i will be hating myself later. gotta run to a benefit dinner/auction for a young man who is a senior at the boys' high school. he was diagnosed with cancer and it is already at stage 3. please keep sonny and the romney family in your prayers. *hugs* to all.

weLcomE novEmbeR?

i can't believe it is november! where has the year gone? first of all, i am trying to not feel like a failure. why? i have not blogged everyday like i wanted too (i said try not, you guys). you know who you are when i say that. i won't mention any names. i can just hear it in your voices now as you read this and the uhhhh sound you just made. i didn't realize what a difference my life would be like having a job outside of the home. i love my job, i do. it's just makes getting everything accomplished that needs to get accomplished each day harder. second, i can't believe how many orders i have done for my scrapbook stores. october is usually a slow month but, overall my stores have kept me really busy. last night i was trying to finish orders up before midnight for a special that one of our companies was doing. so i stayed up waaaaayyyyy to late to get them all done. why am i blogging so early? i woke up before my 6:30 alarm FREAKING out! i though i forgot to send in the order that needed to be in by midninght. so i grabbed my phone (which is my alarm) and came straight out to the family room, turned both computers on to see if i did what i needed to or if i was dreaming. wouldn't you know it my laptop is giving me tRoubLe! i need to see if that order is placed! why is it doing this to me? doesn't it now i am already freaKing out. so i sit here and try to type this blog on my desktop waiting for my laptop to think. why must they do this to us? they must have a brain to know when a time is so important to us to NOT WORK! anywho i will get off of my tangent now. november...WOW! i just received an e-mail from a good friend oh so kindly reminding me that christmas is only 55 days away. thanks lhindah, no stress, right...NOT! just another reminder that...no picture is taken for our christmas cards, no christmas letter is written, no christmas cards are done, no shopping for christmas has even been started, my oldest will be 17 this month YIKES, my second son can get his driver's permit YIKES times 2, thanksgiving is around the corner, all the birthdays yet to come this month and next, taking down halloween decorations to put up thanksgiving ones then christmas ones and the list goes on. so THANKS lhindah, really THANKS for STRESSING ME OUT!!!!! breathe....ok in and out, in through the nose, out through the mouth. JANNA, how come it's not working? maybe i need to listen to mY breathe music as i finish this up?! awe.....better. well my laptop still won't do what i need it to do. i will have to call later to my work company to see if they got the order. i need to get in shower and get ready for the day. i will have to call this good for now. welcomE novEmbeR...