i am posting today as i have many thoughts in my head.

have you ever felt like you needed to just STOP and LISTEN?!

i did that and i found my heart and mind saying "check on a friend".

i stopped and took a moment to check on that friend.

as i received a response back she told me i just stopped her from doing something that might have changed her life and many others.

this post is to remind myself and others how important this LIFE is.

how special we ALL are.

that we ALL have so much to give and so much to gain in this life.

we all have struggle and challenges.

some may be very small while others are quite BIG.

it's how we deal with these challenges that makes our life what it is and what it can be.

sometimes it might be hard to take that step forward not knowing what the outcome may be.

though you never will know if you don't try.

take that one little step, let go and be BRAVE!

cause YOU my friend are loved!

{{hugs}} connie


A journey of a thousand miles

begins with a single step.
~Lao-tzu

{lovely}

i heard this song the other day while i was in the shower. i immediately had to get out and find out who was singing it.

i LOVE the lyrics and thought to myself...

yep, i AM lovely!!

so are all of you out there.

remember don't change for someone else.

you will NEVER be happy.

you will NEVER have peace.

you will NEVER be {YOU} !!

i am learning everyday to be just ME and to be ok with myself.

as for me, the rest is still unwritten...

eNjoY...

LOVELY

(Sara Haze)

I don't wanna be her
I just wanna be little old me
I shouldn't have to think
Who am I supposed to be today
And what gave you the right
To tell me who I should be
Who gave you that right

Cuz, I feel LOVELY just the way that I am
Yes, I feel LOVELY the way that I am

I know you want the best
Yeah only good things for me
But you have to realize
I can't be all these things you project on me

Cuz I'm beautiful to me
Doesn't that mean a thing?

I feel LOVELY just the way that I am
Yes I, I feel LOVELY the way that I am

I need that to be enough for you
I need that to be enough for you
Cuz it's enough for me
It's enough for me

Am I supposed to give up everything I am
Just to make you happy?
I thought I was the one you always wanted me to be
It turns out
I'm just little old me
I'm just little old me
And that's fine by me

Cuz I, I am LOVELY just the way that I am
Oh yes I am
Yes I, I am LOVELY the way that I am

I am LOVELY, LOVELY
I am LOVELY !!

missing them!!!

you never know what you have until it's gone, right? well two weeks is too long for me!! can't wait to have my fuN lovin', craZy kiddos back in my arms.

i just lOvE them to pieces!!!

mY senior boYs!!

it's hard to believe that my two oldest boys have graduated high school. where did all those years go? i can remember when they were born, when they entered kindergarten, middle school, jr high and high school. now to think that all those memorable moments have come and gone. so glad to have videos and pictures to reminisce on the memories of these special times.

austin & trevor both graduated from seminary on thursday night. seminary is a religious class through the church of jesus christ of latter day saints that they have attended for 4 years whiled attending high school. on friday, may 21, 2010 they graduated from high school.

 

what an accomplishment for both of them. to see them progress and achieve many awards, dreams and goals have been pure joy as their mother.

trevor received a second place award for 2010 high school communication contest in a video sports story at the senior award ceremony on friday. he is so talented in arts and digital media. he is also a very talented writer. i am truly inspired when i read his work. i can't stop saying, "i can't believe my son wrote that". he is such a talented kid and i hope someday everyone will known it.

austin will stay at least one more year at the high school while we get him ready for the real world. next year he will be doing a lot of job shadowing and setting goals for his life beyond high school. i am truly excited as his mom to see him reach all of these goals. i have always said "austin is not here on earth to be an academic scholar, he is here to put a smile on your face". i still believe this strongly in my heart. he has been through a lot in his life and has overcome many obstacles. he is full of determination and 

his smile is huge when he has accomplished it.

i am so thankful for all the family and friends who took the time to come and support austin & trevor. i know it meant a lot to them as it did me. they are blessed to be surrounded by many who love and support them. in the end...love truly is all that matters!

CONGRATULATIONS BOYS!!! I LOVE YOU.

2 amaZing solos!!

**PLEASE pause the music from my playlist before you watch these videos so you can have full eNjoYment**

i am so proud of my two senior boys! they each had their final concerts the first week of may and i had NO idea that they each had solos!! trevor has played the trumpet for jazz band, marching band and regular band all four years of high school. on tuesday night, may 4th he had a solo for jazz band. they played cold play's "viva la vida" in which trevor had some solo parts.

on wednesday night, may 5th austin had his choir concert. again i had NO idea he had a solo part. when his director announced he was the solo i was hurrying trying to get my camera to the video mode and i missed the very beginning. i managed to get most of it. this was a tear jerker for me. as many of you know my austin is totally blind, autistic and mentally challenged. they sang "lean on me" with him having the opening part. amaZing i say, just absolutely AMAZING!!!

way to go you two. again...another memory and proud moment for your mom!!

catching up...

it's hard to believe that i had two senior boys who went to prom this year. it was such a bitter sweet day for me.  to see my two boys ask these girls and escort them all day.  tom and i chaperoned austin and his date as these two kiddos are truly special at heart.  God made them with abilities none of us would want but these two, are amaZing!

trevor took his girlfriend kyah and they coupled with his friend patrick and his date maddi.  trevor started the day by taking the girls to my mother's and cooking them a homemade breakfast.  then they went to a movie and vegged a bit.  the girls had decided they didn't want to be all dressed for dinner.  for me...this was the fuN part of prom.  going to dinner with your date all fancied up!  though they decided to eat then get dressed for the dance.  i made arrangements with trev so i could get some pictures of his big day.  i got some cute photos of all of them before the dance.  they all looked so handsome and beautiful!!  they went to the dance and had a blast.  the only thing i think they didn't like...mom being there.  though i tried not to make it noticeable but, we live in a small town and it was in the high school gym.  all in all i think trevor had a great time.  it was his first time being let go to drive all by his self and be responsible for 3 others.  i am so proud of him!  i can't believe my little guy is all grown up.

tom and i had a blast with austin and his date cassie.  we picked her up and went bowling for a few hours.  it was such a great experience for me.  not only to share this day with austin but to see his date taking care of him.  every time it was austin's turn to bowl cassie would take him up to his lane, direct him to where to roll the ball and stand by his side until it was done.  what a true testament to me that there are and will be people out there willing to guide austin in the right direction!  then we took her home so she could get all prettied up.  we picked her up and watched the two of them exchange their flowers {with their mother's help of course}.  then all six of us headed to dinner.  that's right all six of us!  both of these kiddos parents had the privilege to share in this night with them.  we all ate dinner at eva's {our local mexican food restaurant} and enjoyed each other's company.  it was so sweet when we were finished i had austin pay for every one's meal.  what a true gentleman he is.  then we headed to the dance.  oh what a cute sight that was.  it was a masquerade ball themed prom,  so they had a promenade to introduce each couple.  soooo, soooo, cute!  they did their pictures which i can't wait to see.  not the normal pose from back in the day from my prom.  tom and i enjoyed watching these two dance the evening away.  we took cassie home before the clock struck midnight and headed home ourselves.  what a wonderful time was had by all.

i am so honored to be these two amaZing boys' mom!  i am blessed that i get to share in these important times in their lives.  they are now two boys who have become young men.  this world is a better place because of them.  if you have the chance to meet them or know them...YOU are the privileged one. 

i love you boys and i am so proud of you!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE HE'S 18!!

it's hard to believe that trevor is 18! i remember the day he was born so clearly. he was 7 weeks early only weighing 4 lbs. 8 oz. i wondered how long he would have to be in the hospital being so small and all. i remember leaving the hospital empty handed. i was so sad not taking my wee little one with me.

i was only 19 when he entered the world. trevor couldn't wait until my 20th birthday as it was only 3 days away. he had a mind of his own from day one.

i remember how the nurses use to tell me he was rolling over in his incubator. that he would rub his little knees raw that they had to put this special tape on him so not to hurt his self. he went from tube feeding, to little bottles to finally me. this little one surprised us all. he came home only a week after his birth.

before we left the hospital we had to take a cpr class just in case trevor had any complications at home. he went home on a heart monitor that we weren't sure how long he would be on. we didn't know what being 32 plus weeks preemie meant. what life would be like for little trevor kempe.

trevor was truly a miracle baby!! he was off his heart monitor at 5 weeks. he started growing and eating like crazy. today...you would never know he was a preemie.

* age 2 trevor loved baseball

* childhood favorite movie was sandlot

* at 5 he tried to ride his big wheel to mcdonald's cause he knew how to get there

* at 6 he attended franklin elementary and surprised us all at how advanced he really was

* 2nd grade he was reading harry potter books

* entered the gifted program and loved to learn

* picked up the trumpet and hasn't put it down

* gives the best hugs

* doesn't like to smile but you can see it in his eyes

* is the best friend anyone could ever have
* loves his siblings more than his life
* he loves music
* he can drive
* his favorite color is blue
* makes people laugh
* helps those in need
* likes all the attention from all of his nieces and nephews
* his writing is amaZing {can't wait to see his name on a book}
* loves deeply
* learning to be himself

this kid, my son is totally one of a kind!! i am so honored and proud to be his mother. i am blessed beyond measures that he picked me to be his mom. i love you kiddo and hope you get everything you wish for. you're everything a mother could as for.

this was my little boy.

this is my miracle child!



happy 18th birthday trevor! mom loves you

Remembering the true meaning of Easter...

**PLEASE pause the music before you watch this wonderful video.**



though we may not share in the same beliefs or of the same faith, i do hope we all remember the true meaning of Easter.   may we remind ourselves of the sacrifice that was made on our behalf.  Xristos Anesti!

{happy valentine's day}

 for me it has been and always will be the small things that mean the most.  this morning i wanted to start out the day showing my family how much i love them.  it started with red food coloring, pancake batter, some sausage and eggs and a smoke detector.  i forget that this kitchen doesn't have good ventilation.  needless to say, ALL IS GOOD!!  i made a valentine's breakfast with much love.  i freehanded some hearts and fed my family.  remember to share this day with all the special people in your life.  let them know how much they truly mean to you.  for if it wasn't for LoVe...none of us would be here.  have a great day everyone.  i know i will, as i am spending the day with those who have my heart.  remember everyday is valentine's day.  i love you just the way you are.  {{hugs}} connie

 

If you don't go after what {YOU} want,

you'll never have it.

If you don't ask,

the answer is always no.

If you don't step forward,

you're always in the same place.

~author unknown